I am a winning failure.........

Ok so I admit it , the #30dayfitnesschallenge was a complete shambles I got to a week and started forgetting to fit the schedule into my daily routine.

I was so hyped up and ready, I even included lowering my caffeine intake and adding salads to every meal, but habits became the better of me and I started adding them back along with sauces with in one week. 

I completely failed at the challenge but it did make me think more about looking after myself more and I have tried to stop the snacking and big meals .

I do not see the size of my belly reducing , In fact my size has escalated more but I do feel that doing the challenge for even a short time gave me a sense of relief in realising that I do not need to look a certain way for others benefits.

I think the main purpose was not to lose weight but to look better for others like my husband who I still try to impress although being with him for 6 years.
Not only did he tell me not to be so silly but he gave me my confidence back in a way that I actually now feel comfortable in my body a little more than I did back then.

I know having a large tummy is not something I like to look at but I am healthy and my husband loves me no matter what size I am.

On Monday , my husband and I celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary by going clothes shopping and spending the day together while the children were all at school.

Shopping in the past couple of years has become daunting to say the least , I have seen the clothes been bought become bigger sizes and when I walked into the store on Monday looking at the clothes I really wished to wear , I suddenly realised that I did not feel so embarrassed about picking up a larger size .

I even went into a stunning lingerie shop and got my breasts measured.This is something I have not done recently and wish I had done beforehand.
 The fact that I walked in the shop a size D and then was told I was a size F was a little shocking to say the least but for some reason it made me feel better.

I have become a lot more curvy and my husband loves it , I am now learning to love my curves too.

Wearing the right bra really does make all the difference. I was complaining of not been able to buy certain tops because I thought that I had fat around my back and underarms but in fact it was all because I was wearing the wrong size bra and once the lovely lady had brought me my true size , my top fit me better and my boobs looked so much fuller.

I know I am not the only person who has made this mistake but it goes to show how we can become stuck in a routine where we do not adjust to change yet sometimes it can change your whole perspective on how you look .


So all in all , I have not done my challenge and failed my goal in losing weight but I have learned that loving myself is far more challenging to achieve but more doable with the help of family support.