It is now the end of my week 15 of the pregnancy, already another week over and one less week to wait .
I know it feels like it is flying over at the moment but I am sure it will slow down soon .
So the Big event this week was that on the 21st April, I felt real dominant flutters , this time more like real kicks .
Before now , not really believing I was pregnant in the first place made me make believe that I had trapped gas in my stomach and that was the little flutters I was feeling.
I am not getting them regular, maybe once a day if I am quiet and still enough to be able to catch the faint feeling but it usually happens any time after 9pm so I tend to be layed in bed relaxed and when they do happen they feel definite now.
The husband keeps getting dissapointed , he somehow thinks he should be able to hear the tiny heartbeat of Baby Prince through the many layers of my own skin of my stomach as well as my own heart beat which dominates any tiny little souls the size of apple. I have told him he will have to wait a little longer but he is so much more impatient than I am .
He also decided now was the time to start placing his phone on my tummy whilst it played classical music , he remembers reading somewhere (I know this is a miracle in its self ) that babies who listen to certain types of music in the womb have been proven to be more intelligent in their growing years, it is a little early but nothing wrong with a head start I don't think.
With no exam of ultrasound scans this week, I have no true idea on how baby is doing but I have been reading those many apps I have on my phone about the growth and development of the average baby at this stage in the womb and was interested to find out that our little baby can sense light although its eyelids are still fused shut .
If you shine a light onto your tummy , it is said that the baby will react and try to move away from it.
Baby is said to be around 10 cm at this week but I know that on the scan my baby was this size a week ago .
Apart form the cravings or need of wanting hot chocolates constantly still, I have not been feeling that bad except for a few spats of sickness .
Unfortunately I have been moaning a little to much in the husbands ear and called mean to at my constant whining of wanting one.
Unfortunately , he works a lot so I was unable to get one but he has promised to take me for one on Friday so like a sad woman I am , I am excited for my day out for hot chocolate as if it was Christmas , terrible I know.
The sun has been shining this week , my initial thoughts on this was that it was typical and that somehow the weather knew I was pregnant and on purpose decided we were going to have the hottest summer yet. Maybe it is just wishful thinking .
The sense of smell has become apparent even more this past few days.
I have found out I feel a little icky and sick at the smell of brown sauce and coffee . I know my sister said she hated certain smells during pregnancy but I myself have never experienced it so this is something new to me.
One thing this week that has been an issue is that I have come to realise how lucky I have been with all of my other pregnancies .
Luckily they have all been very straight forward and before , during and after birth have gone very smoothly.
Unfortunately for some though, the heartbreak comes early when premature births of their babies happen and I have been watching quite a few friends on my social media networks struggle with the upset and worry of their babies going through the hardest challenges . I have found myself worried that this could also happen to me , I get the feeling that I have been so lucky previously that this time with all the unknowing of things , the total surprise of it happening in the first place that this pregnancy is somehow going to turn into the worse of the lot and worry is sticking with me each day I start to think a little too much when on my own .
I just hope that those ladies who are going through a heartbreaking time of their babies fighting for survival understand that they are not alone and I am so pleased they have a huge range of close family and friends supporting them.
I know it sounds silly but for me checking the toilet roll on every toilet visit I take has become a routine for the past few weeks now just to ensue there is no sign of anything that could be wrong such as bleeding .
I seem to have become very cautious about it all with the friends I have seen this past month and their challenging pregnancies.
My body -
So this week, my body has (in my eyes) not changed much but my jeans and tops say otherwise.
I now have only one pair of jeans left that I can wear comfortably JUST, and my tops are starting to roll up and show my tummy which now pops out from the bottom of the tops and I find myself pulling at it to cover it back up.
Luckily my husband went and bought me a new maxi dress and t-shirt to do me until I go shopping myself for some new clothes so I have to bear with leggings at the moment .
Not only are the clothes getting small now but my bras have become very tight and the comments from my husband have become a little like this
'' woah , well those are getting bigger hehe'', typical !
My feet are also starting to hurt, I realised today that having a high arch is a pain , literally, I tried to wear a pair of sandals in the lovely weather we had, simply because my Ugg boots really are not made for those hot summer days but unfortunately I felt like I had bruised all of my feet after only 20 minutes walking so getting some new shoes is definitely on my list of must buys , I already have my eyes on some new converse low tops in bright white , they will go with everything.
Cravings - Hop chocolate and salad
Dislikes - The smell of brown sauce and coffee
Comments from others - ''Sure your only 15 weeks, you look further along ''?
Fears - Thoughts of premature labour or loss
Mood - Well my husband says I have done nothing but moan all week .
Clothes - Not a laughing matter when your favourite pair of jeans now shows a huge ladder tear on the inside thigh and have become to small now to wear but it does mean I get new clothes.
So this week has been ok , I have felt more pregnant this week than any other and with 25 weeks left to go still I am sure it will be a long one although I am hoping it does not drag too much.
Don't forget to come back again to read my updates, next Tuesday I go to see the midwife and hoping to get to hear the babies heart beat so will share the new details next weeks .