So I have just reached the end of my 35th week of pregnancy making me now 36 weeks
and I have to say it is getting very nerve wrecking now.
The kids went back to school this week and I have been saying to myself from the start that I have this fear I am going to go into labour on the way to school and with my oldest daughter no longer joining us on the walk and now getting the bus to her new big school, I feel a little vulnerable with 4 little ones in tow walking to the school along our countryside roads at this crucial stage of the pregnancy.
I can not say I am pleased in any way that the kids are back now , especially with an extra two hours walking to and from school added onto my days but I have to admit that the piece I am sure is going to be very welcomed in the up coming weeks.
There is only 4 more weeks, I honestly can not believe this time has come around so quickly once more for us and the fears have been more than ever since my last midwifery visit.
Three weeks ago we visited the midwife for a routine check to be told baby was in breech position and although I know it was still too soon to worry , I worried even more .
I have in fact done nothing but worry for the past three weeks since then and having another checkup now has had me on tender hooks to say the least.
How is baby?
Well my husband and I layed on the bed this week begging our little bump to turn around in hope he was listening and understanding us.
To me the thought of having to have him turned or my worse fear a c-section was at its peak of anxiety and when the Midwife told me he was in fact head down and engaged , I felt over the moon and so relieved .
On Saturday , I spent my whole day literally on a cleaning mission, some may say ''Nesting'' and on the evening as I got myself ready for bed , absolutely shattered from being so active , I found that my toilet visit was a little different .
I have done and seem to be doing every single toilet visit, checking each wipe and on this occasion I found a very large looking slug like gloop , clear but lots of it.
I found out that this was in fact my mucus plug , well some of it and nothing to worry about.
It does not mean I am about to go into labour but it is a sign that things are working as they should be at this time in my pregnancy and to be fair I was a little shocked by it as I never actually experienced it with any of my other pregnancy's so it does not always happen .
I think the fact I was up and active all day helped this happen and so because I do not want to chance any early birthing just yet, I am going to slow my butt down for sure.
Water sample passed all the tests and was clear and our baby had a wonderful strong heart beat so this time my visit was a happy one although I still have a different midwife to what I am used to . Least this time though it did not seem so rushed.
I am still in shock that our boy is around the size of a watermelon now , pretty much the size of my last born son .
How am I doing ?
I think the worry of him being breech made my week feel a little slower until I found out all was ok but now the worry is over I can sit back and relax , well kind of.
Woo hoo he is now head down and engaged!
I have terrible back ache now , mainly on my right hand side more towards the top of my back though not so much the bottom .
I find walking to the doctors or school is rather painful to. It seems like it happened over night and who is to say it did not but I can only describe the discomfort as scratching inside my pelvis from where his head is turning and trying to get comfortable.
Now I know he is head engaged I now know this is what it is as I had to ask midwife.
I have also found that this past week , sleep is becoming more interrupted.
I am finding myself waking at midnight , then again around the 4-5am time frame . I am wondering if this is the time I will wake in labour or just baby telling me when his to be feeding times may occur.
I have bought a new set of drawers to fit his things into although I need to buy another when I realised that I filled the drawers only with vests and baby grows and had no room for any of his outfits or anything else .
I would not really care but I have already put 4 huge cases full away for the bigger sizes that has been bought for him and so space is now a little tighter than before already.
Least I know he has plenty but wow I forgot how much space little people take up.
I also noticed that when I bought little man some crib sheets, I had bought the wrong ones and in fact I had bought some lovely blue fitted moses sheets which was disapointing as I now have to go look again for some more and I can not seem to find any , anywhere.
Whatever happened to all the baby shops in the North East ?
I really do not want to be ordering from online , I like to go out and come home with something to hold and see and this next weekend I want to go shopping .
It was our 3rd wedding anniversary through the week and we did not exactly get a chance to celebrate it with hubby working and then ending up having really bad toothache resulting in no sleep and visiting the dentist so I want to treat myself , well baby,by doing a little retail therapy at the weekend .
Last year we went on a lovely night away , no children , just me and him away from everything and enjoying each others company and so this time around with bump in tow it seemed impossible to even organise anything so we decided not to.
I was surprised with a gorgeous bunch of roses though which made me smile .
I feel this is the time now that things are starting to happen. I feel very pregnant, bump has dropped, his head is now down and engaged and pains are beginning .
I think though that after all the worrying , I may be ready. Although still find the whole birthing experience scary , I do actually feel like I am ready for him to come and so for the next 4 weeks I am going to try and enjoy the last month of the pregnancy and hope he comes on time and safely instead of worrying like I have done through out this whole time.
I think having the excuse to sit with a comfy fleece and enjoy early nights with movies and chocolate are a fabulous time for us pregnant ladies and I also know I won't be able to use that excuse for much longer also so I may as well enjoy it .
Not long left to go so keep your eyes peeled as you never know when things may start to happen or when little man arrives and I want to share it all with you.